Without happy drugs, I don't always have the mental wherewithal to exercise and cook real food. With them, I gain weight no matter how much I exercise and cook healthy food. For that and other reasons I prefer not to be on the happy drugs as long as I'm functioning enough to go to work and not escape into a book every night.

It's prohibitively expensive to eat a varied, healthy diet without cooking for myself.

Exercising regularly helps with the mood and with my joint pain. But when the mood is bad or the joints are bad the activation energy to exercise is MUCH, MUCH higher. I'm hoping my upcoming vacation is enough to reboot me. The last vacation was.